A Whinning Day..................

Sigh....I am becoming dreadful about saturday! Not working means alone in a dead house with no one to tok to except a stupid computer with perverts all over in ICQ. Saturday is becoming a whinning day for me. Things gets worst when u r sick and no one bothers. Frens and work continue to give u all the shit comments. Dammit ! Confide in a close fren and he ended up scolding me and manifested! GOD! WHY ME!!!! JUST LET HIM COME AND KILL ME....KILL KILL KILL always KILL....Then why am i still alive?! Stupid devil.....u think u r great to control life & death? Ha Ha..

Why God want to create me in the first place? I am one without character so y bother to mould? All the visions and promises is like not coming true so y let me see it? I just ask for someone to take care of me and u started taking away from me and wat so good about all the moulding thing? Why do i have to know u that prevents me to have the courage just to end it all? Why drag my life here meaninglessly? God u say men is created for fellowship...where is my fellowship? I remain faithful, pray, waited, fast, pray again, pick myself up again, let him go bec u tell me so & now u see wat happen? So much about TRUST.....

Love & Patience! Wat is it? To see myself suffering in the midst of letting someone else be happy? Wat have I done to make people hates me SSSSSOOOOOo much. Is it the way i look, my weight, my ugly face and all about me is UGLY?? Then why create me.....I am condemn and rejected.

What kind of life am i living in? Hell on earth.....

I shall live with my Nici & computer only from today onwards

God if u really care for me do something for me on 25 Oct (midnight)....U know what i want