What is Life???

What is life about ? Born, Study, Grow up, work, married, kids, kids grow up and we waiting to step into the rectangular Box?

Hmmm.....weird life isnt it?

I'D RATHER Lyrics

Nice Song (I dont know the person in the pictures hahaha)


I'd RATHER lyrics
I thought sometime alone

was what we really needed

you said this time would hurt more than it helps

but I couldn't see that

I thought it was the end

of a beautiful story

and so I left the one I loved at home to be alone (alone)

and I tried to find

out if this one thing is true

that I'm nothing without you

I know better now

and I've had a change of heart



I'd rather have bad times with you, than good times with someone else

I'd rather be beside you in a storm, than safe and warm by myself

I'd rather have hard times together, than to have it easy apart

I'd rather have the one who holds my heart

whoo-oo-oo-oo yeah



And then I met someone

and thought she could replace you

we got a long just fine

we wasted time because she was not you

we had a lot of fun

though we knew we were faking

love was not impressed with our connection they were all lies, all lies

so I'm here cause I found this one thing is true

that I'm nothing without you

I know better now

and I've had a change of heart

I'd rather have bad times with you, than good times with someone else

I'd rather be beside you in a storm, than safe and warm by myself

I'd rather have hard times together, than to have it easy apart

I'd rather have the one who holds my heart

who holds my heart



I can't blame you if you turn away from me, like I've done you,

I can only prove the things I say with time,

please be mine,



I'd rather have bad times with (please be mine) you,

than good times with someone else (I know)

I'd rather be beside you in a storm (anytime),

than safe and warm by myself (so sure baby)

I'd rather have hard times to gether,

than to have it easy apart

I'd rather have the one who holds my heart (my heart)



I'd rather have bad times with you (surely),

than good times with someone else (surely)

I'd rather be beside you in a storm (oh yeah),

than safe and warm by myself (all by myself)

I'd rather have hard times together,

than to have it easy apart (you know it)

I'd rather have the one who holds my heart



I'd rather have the one who holds my heart

I'd rather have the one who holds my heart

whoooo.....who holds my heart

Return of the Innocence

September 06, I went to SK area office to sign on the form to return the house. Was told that they need 3 months to process it. Surprisingly, in the car as i passed by the familiarised road, I felt rather sad again. I am sure what He said is true. He dont ever wanna step into SK again. Welll......Heck!

These few weeks or months been rather lazy to update my wasted life here. Current company offered a permanent position in one of the "Hottest" Building, I Kay Kiang rejected the offer bec of my Beliefs. Until Now, I have not found anything interesting and suitable. Do I still have any faith to trust for a better offer? Well i dont have any mood abt job anymore. Sianzzzz Just like the movie starred by Sammi: 很想嫁个有钱人！Then i can shake leg, talk "cock" and sing song! LOOOL.

Life is SHORT, PLAY HARDER! Thats what I am heading...towards HELL....I am moving back to the lifestyle of enjoyment:)

Marriage Seminar _ Forgive and LOVE

Pastor is giving us a series of Marriage Seminar this few weeks. Being an Obstrich, I choose to avoid it and stay home to watch it online weekly. Anyway, no point crying over spilled milk.

Today's topic is about anger management, love and forgiveness. New revelation: Love commitment=U love even though u r not being love back the way u want it to be. Keep on Loving and trusting God. WHAT IS LOVE??? Well I guess I never know the meaning of love since 2 years back.

Silly of me to be like Lot's wife to turn back to old things and be like a pillar of salt??? Maybe yes and no.

But............I am beginning to enjoy my life ..without commitment in anything.

Daddy God! Help me if u ever can :(

How Great is our GOD!!!!

Like this song sooo much. :) Great is our God :)

Turkish Sexy Boyss DANCING ...LMAO

OMG LMAO..Found this silly video showing Turkish guy partying.....lol

Turkey - Amazing Country

Wow I never know Turkey is such a beautiful country and a historic place! The amazing building and Sultanahmet Mosque is SOOOO PRETTY. Its amazing and awesome.



Kapadokya Cappadocia

COOL RAP (Turkish??)

Haaa I find this quite cool even though I dont understand it at all....but the picture does suggested something ????

Fever 39.4c

Aiyooooo I realised I have been sick every month! Last Sunday I felt like going to church but I was down with damn bloody high fever....I slept the whole day on sunday and Monday.

Down with fever, cough, runny nose n sore throat etc aiyooooo...

What Went Wrong

Wow its been a long time since I pen dowm my thoughts and the events that happened. Many things happened, some were happy, some were nasty. Nevertheless, I learned that NOTHING LAST FOREVER.....be it Friendship, LOVE or Faith.

Why am I behaving in this way now? Where is the zeal and fire I had for God before? I realised I chose to indulge in silly things that will never prosper my soul. In fact, I am getting bored of what I am doing now. Am I in search of something to fill the void? Somehow I dont wanna let go of my faith as I know God is my only hope and friend who sees me through the past 2 years. I Know GOD LOVES ME AND I LOVE GOD. But why am I loving God in such a LOSER way ???

DISAPPOINTMENT>> UNFORGIVENESS>> BITTERNESS>> HARDENED HEART ?????

I still remembered clearly God told me to forgive and let go during cg, but I thk I cannot control it. Unknowingly, I slowly choose to withdraw from friends. I am skeptical in many things. Perhaps thats how life is. Many things are beyond our control. I really resent the sights of hyprocrites. Some people remove their horns in church and then put them back again when they are outta church. Is that suppose to be right? Do u go around hugging people every sunday without the slightest feel of love? This moment u hug them, next moment u swear about them.....Come on!!! Dont tell me such things also need to be discipled?

Its rather sad to see the people are scattered all over now...Unity, Love and Fellowship are indeed Important. Without it....sighhhhhhhhhhh.............

Gathering w Loud n Con

Wow its been a long time since i update my blog.....Am just too lazy to write anything..

I started my contract work on 2 May already...I really felt so bored as I was used to such a hectic job as an Engineer previously. Now I got nothing to do, I really felt like sleeeeepingggg.....Really a waste of my precious time. I wonder why they waste the money engaging me. LOL If this continues, I wonder how my time can past there...I M BORED TO DEATH....I WANNA WORKKKKK.

It was my first time working pm shift...(how could i ended up in such a lousy shift ???) Got a call from my Ms Loud ard 8+pm. So happy to hear from her after so long!!! Its really badddd for me to work in town area.....anytime go out also no problem for me... lol.

Really glad to know Mr Consultant is doing fine now after he fell from the roof top 2 yrs ago...His hand still has the operation scar.....SCARYYY!!!! Sometimes i wonder, do we really need to work so hard that we have to risk our life for the company....Thank God he recovered...else what will happen to his family! I must Thank God that when I was climbing the same roof top, it does not give way to my weight! LMAO...hahaha.....Well thats the stupid nature of my work...But its too late now to change...I just climbed the roof top again 2 days ago, they said there are lots of radiation wor..... :( What the heck la.....

After dropping Ms Loud, I accompanied him to Sengkang...a place that i dreaded most....Our car passed by the place....surprisingly, I do not even missed anything there. I just felt that its such a waste that I have to give up such a strategically located place...But i know God will never short change me :) The best is yet to come...I should focus for a better future :))) Yeahhhh.....

Even God by Charlotte Church

Even God can't change the past
No matter how many tears I've cried
Yes, I thought this love would last
Who am I to question why?
Who an I?

Darling when I'm hurt
That's when I'm satisfied
Tell me what it's worth
To persue the Holy life
I can see your face
Even when I close my eyes
I can give you love
Even when I've been denied

Who's loving who?
Who's fooling who?

Even God can't change the past
No matter how many tears I've cried
Yes, I thought this love would last
Who am I to question why?
Who am I?

Darling what is love
If it never gets you high?
Should we sit and wait
While the wasted years roll by?
Is there time to say
If I lied, I apologize?
Never go away
Please stay here by my side

Who's fooling who?
Who's loving who?

Even God can't change the past
No matter how many tears I've cried
Yes, I thought this love would last
Who am I to question why?
Who an I?

They try to break you
They try to steal your stars
If they ever take you
Just remember who you are
They try to hate you
Just like some love bizarre
It's a sign of weakness
To be afraid of what you are

Who's loving who?
Who's fooling who?

Even God can't change the past
No matter how many tears I've cried
Yes, I thought this love would last
Who am I to question why?

Life is Boring

Well many things have been running in my mind....Some is happy some is not. So why be bothered abt it?

Yesterday went for my guitar lesson with baby. Dont know why I somehow felt v discourage over the many things even though I may look happy!

Hummm when will i leart my lesson? Have I given up 100% or I still wanna stick one leg into the world? Would i be able to leave my past behind, dont feel guilty abt it and move on? I think this time its really difficult for me.....

Well its not something of my own choice. Just felt that why is the world so cruel and people are trying to destroy me when I am being nice to them. Why me? There are so many people ard, why they dont go mess with them? Why choose me? I have never hurt anyone before, yes I am gullible, so wat !!!!!!

Untitled - Simple Plan

Why is life so hard.. Turning a new leaf is simply too difficult..everyone is judging everyone else, even the so called holy and anoited ones! Jesus said 'Let the one without sin, cast the first stone"....


Untitled
I open my eyes
I try to see but I'm blinded by the white light
I can't remember how
I can't remember why
I'm lying here tonight

And I can't stand the pain
And I can't make it go away
No I can't stand the pain

Chorus:
How could this happen to me
I've made my mistakes
Got no where to run
The night goes on
As I'm fading away
I'm sick of this life
I just wanna scream
How could this happen to me

Everybody's screaming
I try to make a sound but no one hears me
I'm slipping off the edge
I'm hanging by a thread
I wanna start this over again

So I try to hold onto a time when nothing mattered
And I can't explain what happened
And I can't erase the things that I've done
No I can't

How could this happen to me
I've made my mistakes
Got no where to run
The night goes on
As I'm fading away
I'm sick of this life
I just wanna scream
How could this happen to me

I've made my mistakes
Got no where to run
The night goes on
As I'm fading away
I'm sick of this life
I just wanna scream
How could this happen to me

A meaningful day

Finally after 4 weeks of recuperation from my emotional hurt caused by the Devil, Gerry is slowly getting back to do meaningful thingy again. A part of me was still chipped..but its the consequence I had to face for being foolish, trusting and loving the devil.

I barely slept on friday nite as I was 'admiring' my PC until 5.30am. Then I had to wake up early on sat morning to attend the bible study lesson which I had missed (on those sundays which I was with the devil and falling sick :D). After that, a few of us visited Terence's dad at the hospital to pray for him. Seeing his dad reminded me of my grandpa. I was feeling kinda sad to see such a skinny and helpless man lying there. The least i can help is to visit him and pray for him.

We had an enjoyable fellowship together eating the Punggol Nasi Lemak (which was blessed by Abraham) before our prayer meeting coupled with the "speak proper english campaign". I seriously think that Singaporeans are very weak in speaking proper mandarin and English. When we speak in Mandarin, the mainland chinese and Taiwanese will laugh at us. When we speak English, the caucasians dont understand our singlish too =D In the end we are neither here nor there...hee hee I think the best language that we speak is the Hokkien Vulgar Langauge...haaaa..........(well..its just my 5cents worth of thoughts..I hope I wont offend anyone)

Perseverance (its tough...)

"New level = New Devil. Thus we need New Faith to see us through the New Test." humm.....

I am facing the same temptation again. But I know I must guard my heart well this time round. I already came so far, I cannot fall again in the same trap. I am pressing on thru prayer every time I was tempted to call. I am wondering is he ok, what is he doing now, still busy this n that kinda stuff..Why am I still thinking abt it? Beats me....Do i still care abt him after all these? Do I need more time to forget abt it again? Well, I really enjoyed and missed his company. Seeing him dance, sing etc is enuff to make me laff. Really cute and funny to think abt it.

I know this mind battle will come again n again but I will hang onto God's promise to deliver me again and again until the victory is finally over. Its tough but I know with my own strength i really cannot pull through. But with God's help, I am sure I am able to forget someday. Its stupid of course bec I am here still missing and thinking while the other is partying now (i presume). Well guess this is life...U gain some, u lose some, you cant have the best of both world. The most impt thingy is, it is not necessary to be with the person you love as long as you know that he is enjoying and happier like this...the other impt fact is, IT IS FOR MY OWN GOOD!

Vision Of Jesus's robe

An angel saw a vision for me that day .....

I am clothes with Jesus BIG White robe of righteousness and supernatural strength...Just when I thought I have no more tears in my eyes or is my heart dead, tears rolled down automatically. I know with my own strength, I can never make it, Now I am relying on God's strength to help me overcome the hurdles in life.

I am determine to treasure Jesus's robe and move on...I have come so far, I cannot simply just give up...Deep down, I know i still love and fear God even though the devil is trying so hard to steal away my dreams and destiny......

But the good thing is...keep on keeping on...

Jay Chou Concert in Singapore

I thk I were among the crazy gals screaming in the concert with 3 of my friends at the indoor stadium.

Jay is simply fantastic! I missed his performance and I will definitely buy the most expensive tickets again if he is coming to perform in Singapore again!

Farewell Baby Devil (9 Mar 06)

Today is a day of remebrance because I had finally decided to forsake the past and cast all my cares upon God. The seed was never uprooted a year ago. I must ensure that the seed and the roots is completely uprooted this time round. Yes, its painful to forsake it but I know I must forget the Devil now. The devil will always be a devil, and nothing good will ever come out from him. The devil had painted a beautiful picture and given me a wonderful time, but all this is temporal with no eternity and does not prosper my soul at all! Although I had suffered from the consequences, I also learnt alot during the process.

It must be God's will to allow it and to end it. Everything is supernaturally intervened. I sensed it in my spirit and I know I can never win my fight against God. I was simply rebellious until 7 Mar 06 when I watched Joel Osteen services. Faith really comes by hearing, and hearing from the word of God. Romans 8:28 In all things, God works for the good of those who loves Him!

God reminded me of the axehead story in 2 kings 6 again. This was what God showed me 1.5yrs ago when I first came to church. And now I know its another cycle bec God showed me the exact verse again! (Creepy) It is by God's grace that the axe float in the water and I have to PICK IT UP TOO. But I must also know why the axehead dropped. God had revealed it to me why my axehead dropped. I know its my root cause and I know God is surfacing it out for me to pray and deal with it.

Today I made my decision to forget abt the devil. I finally deleted all his sms and contact number from my HP. The devil will be a history from now onwards........Restoration mentality will takes place.........

Cry !

Many times, our soul cries out to God "Abba Father! Help me!" I can no longer walk in this life victoriously without you by mu side! Its always when we humbled ourselves and cry out to God saying "God! I cannot take it anymore! I cannot forget nor change the past, I cannot control the present nor predict the future! My life is not in my hands but yours! I am the clay and you are the potter! God, this is my life, I cry out to you for your help and surrender! Whatever u wanna mold or change in me, please do so...but please pour all your anoiting over me, dearest Jesus!"

I really missed the time we had our church service at our first church building at Jurong. But I am even more excited to wait upon the Lord for our new stadium Building!