Heart Broken Day!

Today is an OFF day! Hooray! I am suppose to work but laziness over power me & hinder me from going back to work.

Slept around 12am, quite early for a saturday nite. But it was an extremely tired day as I cried BITTERLY ALONE the whole day. What could be more dreadful for a woman to undergo?! It is to cried so bitterly and yet your most loved partner is not with u.

Sometimes really wonder why is life full of trials. The harder i tried to hang onto God's promises, the more contradicting the situation becomes. Tempted not to wait upon the Lord and to give up on God as the situation seem so dark and hopeless. But somehow i went for cg as i am suppose to prepare for food for all my brothers and sisters.

During CG, I got revelation abt the 4 ways which trials will come. I tried focusing on it but the giant seems to engulf me. Watch service online, encouraged a bit. Somehow late at night when i started to feel lonely, tears and sadness engulf me once again. Then ran to God prayed with my friend "salty", feel lifted and tok to Father and slept early to attend service the next day!!

Lesson learnt: Never stay at home alone when deeply troubled. Try to divert attention to do other things.