Sorrowful Days Ahead

Father in Heaven: Thank you for protecting me and sending me wonderful frens to stand in the gap for me. Yesterday went back home although the newspaper was still left outside the door step by the delivery man, i knew from woman's sixth sense that Lucky came back while i was not around. Lord, i was saddened by the thoughts that my dearest Lucky had to sneak in & out of his own house now. HAIZZZ....... Father, I dont know why while i was packing for my trip, suddenly i was overwhelmed with sorrow that it seems that i might not be coming back to this house again. It was this very moment that I learnt what elders always said, "sim tia" (heart pain). Never in my life before do i had that feeling. But today I had it all. Lord it was VERY VERY LOUSY feeling...... :_ ( As I was flipping through the photo albums, tears formed in my eyes. Had too much mixed feelings. We used to be such a big group of frens together happily always go trip and LOL together. But as we grow older, bitterness, jealousy and misunderstanding torn the group apart. Our group split from at least 10+ people to a mere headcount of 5-7 people. Latest news is 1 more will be gone...the happy moments will be gone. When i saw lucky in the photo, he used to smile and laugh so happily. But i know the moment will be gone forever........Hainzzz......It seems that the older we grow, the lesser frens we have. But I know lord that my godly sis & bros will never leave me in dire streets. I feel deeply touch by their concern. If Ghiam and Cin never insist I go home by myself on Sunday, I may not be able to type this prayer to u anymore. Thank you dears for the wonderful discernment!

As i laid on my beds, dun kun why my heart feek so awkward. Pain, sad...nothing can describe that feeling. I wet my pillow with tears again knowing the most important and joyful part of my life is gone. I need to stand on my 2 feet again ALONE.

Father, please strengthen me each day to do your will so that your promise will come to pass. Give me the wisdom and courage to break the news to my mum. Lord, I pray she will not manifest and aggravate the painful hole in my heart. Lord, I pray i will receive all the morale support and love from her. Lord, grant me the opportunity to tell her before Friday. Bless my job and grant me the favour with man.

Thank you Jesus for your love, guidance and protection.

In Jesus name I pray......AMEN !!!