What Went Wrong

Wow its been a long time since I pen dowm my thoughts and the events that happened. Many things happened, some were happy, some were nasty. Nevertheless, I learned that NOTHING LAST FOREVER.....be it Friendship, LOVE or Faith.

Why am I behaving in this way now? Where is the zeal and fire I had for God before? I realised I chose to indulge in silly things that will never prosper my soul. In fact, I am getting bored of what I am doing now. Am I in search of something to fill the void? Somehow I dont wanna let go of my faith as I know God is my only hope and friend who sees me through the past 2 years. I Know GOD LOVES ME AND I LOVE GOD. But why am I loving God in such a LOSER way ???

DISAPPOINTMENT>> UNFORGIVENESS>> BITTERNESS>> HARDENED HEART ?????

I still remembered clearly God told me to forgive and let go during cg, but I thk I cannot control it. Unknowingly, I slowly choose to withdraw from friends. I am skeptical in many things. Perhaps thats how life is. Many things are beyond our control. I really resent the sights of hyprocrites. Some people remove their horns in church and then put them back again when they are outta church. Is that suppose to be right? Do u go around hugging people every sunday without the slightest feel of love? This moment u hug them, next moment u swear about them.....Come on!!! Dont tell me such things also need to be discipled?

Its rather sad to see the people are scattered all over now...Unity, Love and Fellowship are indeed Important. Without it....sighhhhhhhhhhh.............