Perseverance (its tough...)

"New level = New Devil. Thus we need New Faith to see us through the New Test." humm.....

I am facing the same temptation again. But I know I must guard my heart well this time round. I already came so far, I cannot fall again in the same trap. I am pressing on thru prayer every time I was tempted to call. I am wondering is he ok, what is he doing now, still busy this n that kinda stuff..Why am I still thinking abt it? Beats me....Do i still care abt him after all these? Do I need more time to forget abt it again? Well, I really enjoyed and missed his company. Seeing him dance, sing etc is enuff to make me laff. Really cute and funny to think abt it.

I know this mind battle will come again n again but I will hang onto God's promise to deliver me again and again until the victory is finally over. Its tough but I know with my own strength i really cannot pull through. But with God's help, I am sure I am able to forget someday. Its stupid of course bec I am here still missing and thinking while the other is partying now (i presume). Well guess this is life...U gain some, u lose some, you cant have the best of both world. The most impt thingy is, it is not necessary to be with the person you love as long as you know that he is enjoying and happier like this...the other impt fact is, IT IS FOR MY OWN GOOD!