Santification of mind ~Must be very important~

Well sorry Mr blog for not talking to you regularly now. Had a revelation on Sunday Bible Study. Pastor said something that hit my spirit man. He mentioned that if God repeats something a few times (like in the bible, he repeat something 4 times), it must be something Very VERY important!

Sometimes, God has always been talking to me already but I just dont seem to get it bec my 'spiritual frequency' is not being adjusted to the Perfect 7 radio station yet! :S I have been groaning & praying about forgeting the stupid memories before Sy Rogers came. Recently, during service, dont know whether is it conincidence or wat, Pastor has been saying about erasing our memories....another also made the same prayer....we put out hand on our forehead and pray God to erase off our memory! I believe this is not coincidence anymore. God is working something on me too! :) And it must be very IMPORTANT for Gerry to erase her memories too! Of course there are certain things which is not easy to let go, but i know my God understand the emotional thingy is not easy to let go. That's why there is consistent follow up prayer by the Pastors.

Sometimes I wonder why am i a super woman or wonder woman?! I undergo circumstances that would cost me my life easily but yet I am not suffering from any depression and am still survivng well! hmmmm.....quite surprised for my leeching nature ......If God never showed me that verse that time, I may be staying in either Woodbridge or in Hell now. I recalled God always rescue me when I CRIED out to him when I am suffering under Terror reigning. Once in 1999 and another time in 2003. God is really faithful bec the bible says that he will help us in times of trouble and he really did intervened in my case! Its the ungrateful Gerry who chose Terror over God in 1999 after receiving God's mercy and restoration. And I am stupid to subdue to Terror and allow him torture me for another 3 years. Waste my time only...HUMK !

Terror really made my life a complete suffering back then and I am glad that he is suffering now. :P He no longer talks to anyone and not even to his parents nor siblings. He is really a weirdo and suffering from hormones unbalanced, always lost his cool. Chey!

Human is created in three parts too (Tripatriate)!
Body, Soul and Spirit. The soul is the most difficult part to deal with....its our mind, our emotions etc....But I know nothing is impossible with God. I know I am still missing and thinking about something which I should not be thinking at all. But I am trying. Am trying very hard. Its about admitting and submitting and Jesus taking over the Lordship.

I don't know will I ever get rid of the bench mark I set. Wildcat has been scolding me. :( I simply 'compare' anyone I met with Susan again! To me Susan is still the best, the rest simply CANNOT MAKE IT !~ :( I am only bench marking la, not COMPARING la. (oops hee..hee...whats the difference, Gerry?!) I feel that appearance or $ is not important at all. Most importantly is whether do u feel happy, comfortable or whether can u communicate with that person. No one wants to end up going out with someone who can bored u to death even though that person is not your partner?! I just wanna enjoy and laff alot, be happy and thats all.....I am a nun now ma...wont be stupid to fall into the pit of stupid love sufferings again...........Once bitten twice shy, dear! aheee mmm...actually was twice bitten and thrice shy! :D

Blog...Actually I still miss that person alot. I wonder whether he knows that I mean what I said too. I also cant understand why I am so stupid and still miss someone who has forgotten all about me...."photocopy me" hee....so cute...I enjoyed his jokes.