Wat a boring Friday after Surgery! :(

Staying at home on a Friday nite can really KILL Gerry! Most of my frens were out without poor Gerry :(. One evil friend still call me and tempted me!:P Instead of saying "hello", the opening speech was "Thumper, Thumper, Thumper!" Arrggghhhhhh.......AIYO! So bored to stay at home....sob sob....I cant drink or do any lancing lancing today...Ouch! Stupid stitches! :(

I was chatting with brother butter over the phone for almost 1 hour today! We were so bo liao, listen to songs, talk 'kok' sing song......Today I cant go drinking, but I am at home cooking phone porridge :P. Glad to know I still have a brother around to keep me company! :) Yo! Bro! Thank u ar! :D

Brother Butter "stumbled" poor Gerry! Induced by him, I began to think and recalled my "exciting" life in Nov 03 - Jan 05. I gave myself excuse to take "MC" from church and began exploring the "world". The worldly tour was indeed enjoyable. I even found someone who eventually became kinda special to me! BUT there is a vast difference between everlasting happiness and the worldly happiness! Behold! Be wise! Go after the everlasting joy that God had promised. No other human can promised u anything! Nothing at all!

Lesson learnt: Worldly enjoyment , no matter how happy you are, it is only TEMPORARY. It will go off very quickly like a ghast of wind and "Bang!" U r left alone feeling empty, broken hearted and discouraged. Worst of all, u r left all alone to face the consequences by yourself. No one is there to help u at all! Human beings are just so selfish ! They are only concern about their own interest and ignoring others' feeling totally! They don't even have any sense of guilt by "washing off their hands" without bothering to give any explanations at all. They just love themselves too much.......sigh...

Isn't it cruel? The world is never kind! It is full of craps!

Somehow, I still miss OnO. I also don't know when my heart was opened for OnO. He is special and I really enjoyed just being with him. He is kinda special and dear to me but yet untouchable! We are just from 2 different world! But at least I know that I am untouchable now. Heart is closed and my objective is to become a NUN :)

I know I cant afford to grieve Jesus again.....He died for my sins....I can't afford to lose the anoiting over worldly things again. Is this the beginning of Godly fear n wisdom? I just hope and pray that I will be ready as a bride when Jesus comes back looking for his brides...... :) I believe it is very soon.....