Erase Past Memory (Can i do that completely??)

We had a great time today even in CG even though the number of members who came were very few. Had an awesome time worshipping the Lord and speaking in our heavenly language. Now I realised why it is so important to speak in tongues.

I think its about time I leave my guilt from all my wrong doings and past, and start looking forward to my present and future victories! I really hope to have a sanctify mind and a godly mind in future. Never again will I allow the same sins to come and haunt my guilt and memories again. Bec no matter how hard I tried, I will still think about it sometimes.

Yesterday Wild Cat told me she saw Terror at the marina south road show. This man was enjoying himself now with dont know "who". I also dont wish to know any thing about him any more. Although I said that to myself, I dont know why I am still feeling abit affected, thinking that he may be seeing someone new now. This is ridiculous isnt it?! I thought the Spirit of Grieve has been casted outta me? Or now is the Spirit of Rejection? Or may I manifesting again? No wonder God told me His peace and Joy will be with me. I realised God always give me encouragement prior to some discouraging events.

Why have I start to confess negative again? I still miss OnO after so many months!!!!!!!!! So is the devil trying to make me confuse again? Am I going thru another testing of my emotions? Haa if i pass the test, will God send my Godly man soon??? Never mind, I will wait upon the Lord and OnO was history and I MUST FORGET him!!!!!!!!!!!!!! AIYOOOOOOOOOO FOOOOORRRRGGGGEEEETTTT! OUT! OUT! OUT !

Aiyoooo FOCUS GERRY!