Am I ready to be a Conversionist??

Last Sunday, we had a guest song leader from Hillsong Australia....Rueben Morgan. His praise n worship was so special...I love his powerful voice. I wonder will I ever had such a good vocal in singing... I love singing since i was a little kid, could this be one of my gift ? kekek :P I remember OnO also loves to sing so much.... :)

Pastor has been stressing on venturing out into the market place the past 3weeks. I like the way he preached with authority yesterday...."Get out of the way!" We want to be influential and be on par with the society so that we can impact the nations. If we behave 'lao tu', how can we catch up with the society??! We r a convertionist! We need to lead a good example as salt n light of the world so that Christ can shine thru us and penetrate into the market place and bring revival at the market place. We can convert anywhere we go as long as we r faithful in the little things, God will honour it and bring forth promotion n revival.... In my carnal mind, I used to wonder can I ever do anything great? The vision I had far surpass my capability.....but I have been seeing this vision very frequently recently...almost everyday I will see this vision. What does it mean? Am I that person in the vision? Can I bring that vision to pass? With my own strength it seems almost impossible...but I know God always had a greater calling for us.... FAITH.......I know God is reminding me abt this vision. If I can see it, I can receive it. Its a matter of time only..................

God spoke to me in CG last saturday. I heard him asking me "R u willing to give up your worldy fun for Me?" I knew I dissapointed God bec I dare not answer him immediately. Until now I still have not response to this qn. Bec I am still clinging onto the fun which I am unwilling to let go completely. I thought as long as I behave, wats wrong with clubbing and I love the crowd so much in New Asia?! On Sunday morning, I was reading the bible on my way to church. It seems that every passage was 'flashing' in red as a "warning" to me....and God reminded me the Cat incident in Genting. There are only 2 choices, to keep going forward towards a New Life or going backward towards a Life of Destruction. The cat chose to run back towards where it came from and the car ran over it NOT ONCE but TWICE. Wat a terriblly WRONG decision made. I also recalled wat my holy guardian told me abt avoiding to sin wilfully since God has given me a brand new start of life. Jesus did something great for the world at the age of 30. But wat did i achieve in life so far? NOTHING!!!! I knew I had to make a decision now which will impact my remaining years...........

I have come to a point where I am afraid to live my life without God. I know I need the Holy Spirit everyday and I cant afford to lose the anoiting again. But I am also hoping to be AB AB and enjoy clubbing at the same time. (Its only clubbing!!!! But I know I wont be able to keep a PURE mind in the club...) I just pray that I will have the discipline and courage to make the decision n tell God with great confidence "Yes! I am ready to give up for u Lord!" But I dare not tell God now bec i know I am not ready and I dont want to take my word to God so lightly........... I will keep on praying for strength against my weakness and willingness to forsake all things and follow Jesus whole heartedly, to overcome the temptation. I hope I will pass this stage....I know I will reach another level of breakthru if I have make the decision ................

God, u know my heart. U know my weakness n strength. Pls give me the wisdom n transform my weakness into strength so that I can fulfil the purpose U have planted in my life. Watch over me Lord, so that I will not waver and prepare my heart to love You only. Give me new revelation daily and let me focus unto U. Only U can fill up the void in my life and I will depend on u daily on everything. Lord, I pray I will do only things that is pleasing to u....pls mould me to be a better person. Help me to forget the past n focus on u from today onwards. Thank U Lord. In Jesus name I pray....AMEN!!!!!!!!!!!!