Focus on God, Not the Failure

Instead of concentrating on your problems and getting discouraged, focus on God and meditate on His promises for you. Yes, you may have fallen down but you don't have to stay down. God is ready, willing and able to pick you up.

God reminded me of 2 Kings 6 about the fallen axe again. He showed me this first when a year ago. Recently when I was feeling so devasted, He reminded me the exact verse again. 'Pick it up! From where u dropped it!'. I know its by God's grace that I am able to pick up the axe again. He forgives a multitude of sins. So I must learn to forgive myself. I traded his love for something else. Well, at least I experienced a wonderful time with M even though its not of God's will.

Guess I must do myself a great favour to release forgiveness so that I will not be bound by resentment, unforgiveness and bitterness. I will bless both Terror and M as I release all my sorrows and hurts to God. I have reached a point where I cannot do anything but submit everything to God. I surrender......white flag.....I had my due punishment...been sick for so long...

What is the root cause? Is it related to Terror? Maybe..if its not for Terror, I would never have known M? Or it has to do with my own discipline issue? I know I failed the same test again.

Meanwhile, I need alot of character molding and 'suffering' from dying to self for christ. I know I cannot make it, but i will fight the good fight of FAITH thru christ who strengthen me.

Gerry: No more lawlessness and disobedience.