Monday, January 30, 2006

2006 LUNAR New Year! A NEW START????

This year is the first new year that we started CNY relative visitation since we stopped 2 years back ever since the death of my grandparents. within 2 years I lost all my 3 grandparents.....Kinda miss them. We went to visit PO PO and Gong Gong at the columbarium. I am rather surprise to see so many people there paying respect to their love ones...Its rather sad to see some died at such a young age, even younger than I am. Yet I am wasting my life away now ... hummm...

The past is gone, now we live a new life. But why everytime when I decided to stay focus, there are bound to be distractions ?????? WHY CANT I BE LEFT IN PEACE????? I really felt I am a piece of trash...why people can do so well and stay focus but for me? I have to struggle in making a choice....Or I would rather say, Am I WILLING to make the choice at all????

I lost something precious 1 year ago, I gain something more precious within that year.....But now? I am neither here nor there! GIVE ME THE CONVICTION! WHAT HAPPENED TO MY CONSCIENCE?

Thursday, January 26, 2006

Valentine Day...dreadful or sweet ?

Valentine's Day is coming again! Boring day! Regret spending 10x of my valentine day w a jerk...a total waste of my time...!!!!!!!!!! The thot of him makes me feel like puking..PHUI !!!!!

Will there be any thing interesting this year? I bet not..everything is wait wait wait, sacrifice, sacrifice, sacrifice and sanctify, sanctify, sanctify! WHATS WRONG W HAVING FUN??? going to MOS is not a bad thing, isnt it?

3 of My friends just gave birth in dec n january....oh no! It makes me have a sudden urge to be a mom too! SIAN LA!

Love Tank Empty

It seems that nowadays those close to me are drifting further n further away. Somehow it feels not the same as before. Is it something wrong w me or w them? DID I RELLY SACRIFICED MY HAPPINESS, JOY N ETERNITY?? I wont be bother abt it anymore... If people wanna keep a distance, so be it...I wont be begging them....If u treasure my friendhip....

Build relationship...Chek!...Why I must always be the one to stretch my capacity? Cant the also party stretch their own???? FUNNY! Dont come n bug me! My heart is little..so wat...I only love those who love me...

If anyone wanna gets critical, pls look at the spank in ur eyes....

Tuesday, January 24, 2006

Lobster and Crab at Clarke Quay

Finally my friend is back... Had a wonderful time drinking red wine and eating seafood which ended with all the mess in the hands, face and nose. It was delicious .... think my diet plan is down the drain again....

Pass by MOS and i was so excited! BUT IT WAS CLOSED ON MONDAY! SIAN ! Well at least I know the location already.

Sunday, January 22, 2006

I HATE EVERYTHING ABOUT U!

"I Hate Everything About You - 3 Days Grace"

Every time we lie awake;
After every hit we take.

Every feeling that I get;
But I haven't missed you yet.

Every room mate kept awake;
by every sigh and scream we make

All the feelings that I get;
But I still don't miss you yet

Only when I stop to think about it.

[Chorus] I hate everything about you, why do I, love you?
I hate everything about you, why do I, love you?

Every time we lie awake;
After every hit we take.

Every feeling that I get;
but I haven't missed you yet.

Only when I stop to think about it.

I hate everything about you, why do I, love you?
I hate everything about you, why do I, love you?

Only when I stop to think about you I know. Only when you start to think about me, do you know...

I hate everything about, why do I, love you?
You hate everything about me, why do you love me?

I hate, you hate, I hate, you love me.

I hate everything about you, why do I, love you?

Zero Character SCUMBAG

Really cannot understand how a person can be such a bloody miser and a pussy pest! Every now and then bugged me for pussy little items....does he has any balls at all! Fancy a man come after you over such thingy! Really a laughing stock! Well as for me, I never ever wanna see this son of a bitch anymore. So what if you wanna see me? I am not the same old Gerry anymore. Really IT is such an asshole and scumbag!(not even worth to call him a He, call him IT) I MUST HAVE BEEN BLIND! THANK GOD ITS OVER! I CANNOT IMAGINE ALL MY LIFE TO LIVE WITH SUCH A BALLESS, GOOD FOR NOTHING, PUSSY MISER PERVERT!!!!!!

aiyooo........feel like slapping AND HOOTING him ...arghhhhhhhhhhhhh


I HAVE CHANGED! I DUN EVER WANNA SEE THIS SCUMBAG ANYMORE. I AM NO LONGER IN MY DEPRESSION OVER SOMEONE WHO DUN DESERVE IT AT ALL. THERE ARE OTHER PEOPLE IN THIS WORLD WHO APPRECIATES ME. AS LONG AS I GET WHAT I WANT AND BE HAPPY NOW. SO WAT? WHO CARES ABOUT THE FUTURE?

My aim is to be happy and enjoy now, enjoy as much as I can, as I know it will not last longer than expected. Well this is life. Nothing is everlasting and nothing is free from sadness. Every happiness comes after or before sadness. Without sadness, how do you know happiness exist?

Everyone likes chicken little. Actually I like the song too....but the stupid chicken handphone trailer's with that chicken dance reminds me of the scumbag! Oops he is not even a man. He is a little pussy with NO BALLS!! LOOOOLLLLLLL His dance step is exactly like chicken little! PHUI! PHUI PHUI!!!!!!

SCRAM OFF LA! LET ME LIVE IN PEACE CAN OR NOT!

Saturday, January 21, 2006

Mr Lonely - Akon

Lonely

Lonely im so lonely,
I have nobody,
To call my owwnnn
Im so lonely, im mr. Lonely
I have nobody,
To call my owwnnn
Im so lonely,

Yo this one here goes out to all my playas out there ya kno got to have one good girl whose always been there like ya
Kno took all the bullshit then one day she cant take it no more and decides to leave

I woke up in the middle of the night and I noticed my girl wasn't by my side, coulda sworn I was dreamin, for her I was
Feenin, so I hadda take a little ride, back tracking ova these few years, tryna figure out wat I do to make it go bad, cuz
Ever since my girl left me, my whole life came crashin

Im so lonely (so lonely),
Im mr. Lonely (mr. Lonely)
I have nobody (I have nobody)
To call my own (to call my own) girl

Im so lonely (so lonely)
Im mr. Lonely (mr. Lonely)
I have nobody (I have nobody)
To call my own (to call my own) girl

Cant belive I hadda girl like you and I just let you walk right outta my life, after all I put u thru u still stuck
Around and stayed by my side, what really hurt me is I broke ur heart, baby you were a good girl and I had no right, I
Really wanna make things right, cuz without u in my life girl

Im so lonely (so lonely)
Im mr. Lonely (mr. Lonely)
I have nobody (I have nobody to call my own)
To call my own (to call my own) girl

Im so lonely (so lonely)
Im mr. Lonely (mr. Lonely)
I have nobody (I have nobody)
To call my own (to call my own) girl

Been all about the world ain't neva met a girl that can take the things that you been through
Never thought the day would come where you would get up and run and I would be out chasing u
Cuz aint nowhere in the globe id rather be, aint noone in the globe id rather see then the girl of my dreams that made me
Be so happy but now so lonely

So lonely (so lonely)
Im mr. Lonely (mr. Lonely)
I have nobody (I have nobody)
To call my own (to call my own)

Im so lonely (so lonely)
Im mr. Lonely (mr. Lonely)
I have nobody (I have nobody)
To call my own (to call my own) girrll

Never thought that id be alone, I didnt hope you'd be gone this long, I jus want u to call my phone, so stop playing girl and
Come on home (come on home), baby girl I didn't mean to shout, I want me and you to work it out, I never wished Id ever
Hurt my baby, and its drivin me crazy cuz...

Im so lonely (so lonely)
Im mr. Lonely (mr. Lonely)
I have nobody (I have nobody)
To call my own (to call my own)

Im so lonely (so lonely)
Im mr. Lonely (mr. Lonely)
I have nobody (I have nobody)
To call my own (to call my own) girll

Lonely, so lonely
So lonely, (so lonely),
Mr. Lonely, so lonely
So lonely, so lonely, (so lonely), Mr. Lonely

Saturday, January 14, 2006

Fort Minor Lyrics - Believe Me (Feat/ Styles of Beyond)

BELIEVE ME

I guess
That this is where we've come to
If you don't want to
Then you don't have to
Believe me

But I
Won't be there when you go down
Just so you know now
You're on your own now
Believe me

Yo
I don't wanna be the one to blame you
Like fun and games
Keep playin' 'em
I'm just sayin-
Think back then
We was like one in the same
On the right track
But I was on the wrong train
It's like that
Now you gotta face the pain
And the devil's got a fresh new place to play
In your brain
Like a maze
You can never escape
The rain
Every damn day's the same shade of grey

Hey
I used to have a little bit of a plan
Use ta'
Have a concept of where I stand
But that concept slipped right outta my hand
And now
I don't really even know who I am
Yo
What do I have to say
Maybe I should do
What I have to do to break free
'N whatever happens to you
We'll see
But it's not gonna happen with me

I guess
That this is where we've come to
If you don't want to
Then you don't have to
Believe me

But I
Won't be there when you go down
Just so you know now
You're on your own now
Believe me

Back then
I thought you were just like me
Somebody who could see all the pain I see
But you
Proved to me unintentionally
That you would self destruct eventually
Now I'm thinkin' like the mistake I made doesn't hurt
But its not gonna work
'Cause it's really much worse
Than I thought
I wished you were something you were not
And now this guilt is really all that I got

You turn your back
And walk away in shame
All you got
Is a memory 'a pain
Nothin' makes sense
You jus' stare at the ground
I hear my voice in your head
When no one else is around
So what do I have to say
Maybe I should do
What I have to do
To break free
Man
'N whatever happens to you
We'll see
But it's not gonna happen with me

I guess
That this is where we've come to
If you don't want to
Then you don't have to
Believe me

But I
Won't be there when you go down
Just so you know now
You're on your own now
Believe me

Yeah!

I guess
That this is where we've come to
If you don't want to
Then you don't have to
Believe me

But I
Won't be there when you go down
Just so you know now
You're on your own now
Believe me

I will do what I have to do
You're on your own now
Believe me
Whatever happens to you
You're on your own now
Believe me
What do I have to say
You're on your own now
Believe me
Its not gonna happen to me
You're on your own now
Believe me

Yeah!

Enjoy the silence

Wow in the month of Jan, there are so many important people celebrating their birthday. We are squeezing out every drop of our brain juice to think of what to buy...and how to surprise them and most importantly, how to be creative and be very economical abt it. :P

However, regardless of our effort which initially suppose to be meant as a surprise, everytime there were bound to be hiccups here and there...well thats life. A piece of good advice. If there is any secret which u do not want anyoe to know, u might as well keep ur bloody mouth tight and shut. Informtion does leaks out! Even by your own or among any trusted friends. Even I myself cannot commit that my own mouth is completely sealed for my bloody business.

Is my black tunnel still not ending? OH GOD!

Busy Busy Busy

Ever since before xmas, I was busy with packing and unpacking for the stupid house, buying xmas gifts, birthday gifts etc etc etc.....WOW I never know I had the energy to shop and shop and shop consequentively for more than 1 week! But I feel so happy buying gifts for people especially when they like it alot...BUT of course there are some insensitive people around .........

I am looking forward to Sunday whereby there will be new deployment and re-arranging of duties etc..yeah yeah........................

Looking forward for my vacation and a good rest....from tranquility........well I just need a good rest...............

Sometimes really wonder where is my freedom,where is my own time most importantly where is my CHOICE.

Busy Busy Busy

Ever since before xmas, I was busy with packing and unpacking for the stupid house, buying xmas gifts, birthday gifts etc etc etc.....WOW I never know I had the energy to shop and shop and shop consequentively for more than 1 week! But I feel so happy buying gifts for people especially when they like it alot...BUT of course there are some insensitive people around .........

I am looking forward to Sunday whereby there will be new deployment and re-arranging of duties etc..yeah yeah........................

Looking forward for my vacation and a good rest....from tranquility........well I just need a good rest...............

Sometimes really wonder where is my freedom,where is my own time most importantly where is my CHOICE.

Thursday, January 12, 2006

Remember The Name (Feat/ Styles of Beyond) - Fort Minor

REMEMBER THE NAME

You ready? Lets go!
Yeah, for those of you that want to know what we're all about
It's like this y'all c'mon

It's just ten percent luck
Twenty percent skill
Fifteen percent concentrated power of will
Five percent pleasure
Fifty percent pain
And a hundred percent reason to remember the name

Mike
He doesn't need his name up in lights
He just wants to be heard whether it's the beat or the mic
He feels so unlike everybody else, alone
In spite of the fact that some people still think that they know him
But fuck em'
He knows the code
It's not about the salary
It's about reality and makin' some noise
Makin' the story
Makin' sure his clique stays up
That means when he puts it down Tak's pickin' it up

Who the hell is he anyway?
He never really talks much
Never concerned with status but still leavin' them star struck
Humbled through opportunities given to him despite the fact
That many misjudge him because he makes a livin' from writin raps
Put it together himself, now the picture connects
Never askin for someone's help, to get some respect
He's only focused on what he wrote, his will is beyond reach
And now when it all unfolds, the skill of an artist

It's just twenty percent skill
Eighty percent fear
Be one hundred percent clear 'cause Ryu is ill
Who would've thought that he'd be the one to set the west in flames
And I heard him wreckin' with The Crystal Method, Name Of The Game
Came back dropped Megadef, took 'em to church
I'm like 'bleach, man, why you have the stupidest verse?'
This dude is the truth, now everybody be givin' him guest spots
His stock's through the roof I heard he fuckin' with S-Dot!

It's just ten percent luck
Twenty percent skill
Fifteen percent concentrated power of will
Five percent pleasure
Fifty percent pain
And a hundred percent reason to remember the name

They call him Ryu the sick
And he's spittin fire at Mike
Got him out the dryer he's hot
Found him in Fort Minor with Tak
Been a fuckin' annihilist porcupine
He's a prick, he's a cock
The type woman want to be with
And rappers hope he get shot
Eight years in the makin'
Patiently waitin to blow
Now the record with Shinoda's takin' over the globe
He's got a partner in crime his shit is equally dope
You wont believe the kind of shit that comes out of this kid's throat

Tak
He's not your everyday on the block
He knows how to work with what he's got
Makin' his way to the top
People think its a common owners name
People keep askin him was it given at birth
Or does it stand for an acronym?
No he's livin' proof
Got him rockin' the booth
He'll get you buzzin' quicker than a shot of vodka with juice
Him and his crew are known around as one of the best
Dedicated to what they doin give a hundred percent

Forget Mike
Nobody really knows how or why he works so hard
It seems like he's never got time
Because he writes every note and he writes every line
And I've seen him at work when that light goes on in his mind
It's like a design is written in his head every time
Before he even touches a key or speaks in a rhyme
And those motherfuckers he runs with, those kids that he signed
Ridiculous, without even tryin', how do they do it?

It's just ten percent luck
Twenty percent skill
Fifteen percent concentrated power of will
Five percent pleasure
Fifty percent pain
And a hundred percent reason to remember the name

It's just ten percent luck
Twenty percent skill
Fifteen percent concentrated power of will
Five percent pleasure
Fifty percent pain
And a hundred percent reason to remember the name

Yeah
Fort Minor, M. Shinoda
Styles of Beyond, Ryu, Takbir
Machine Shop

Tuesday, January 10, 2006

FORT MINOR! My current favourite GROUP~


Yeah! I will REMEMBER THE NAME! Lets ROLL BABY!

Tell the World



We gonna tell the world that Jesus lives and help them live outta their miseries. Alot of pp is in bondages not knowing they have a way out...That way out is to be a new born with Jesus Christ!

Come on! we'll tell the world abt u!

Dumb Dog


So funny! Lucky also behaves like that when i disturb him by snatching his favourite food...

Cool Dog advert

Amazing Dancing Dog



We dun need a partner to dance anymore. We can train dog to be our partner :P

Dog also has STRESS!



The dog can smoke when he is feeling troubled. But I cant! Bec I am not a dog! :P
I already sinned alot, i cant add onto my sins which can be avoided. Thank God I never got addicted to smoking!

Materialistic or ????

I am facing the same thingy again. It has not been dealt with after 1 year of cooling off. It re-surface again...exactly the same scenario. I seem to be rather foolish to some people. But...but ... but........................I think its no harm at all? Am I living in denial? Will it turn out to be bad or better ??

Well, guess I wont have my level of breathru until I pass this test. If i cant sacrifice the little things for God, how can I accomplish a greater thing since I am rebellious and unwilling to let go? OH GOD! ITS PAINFUL !!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

My flesh is really weak...I m groaning and moaning....when can i break FREE? Do i rely on God to achieve the things that I like or I wanna base on my flesh to achieve it? Well.....the choice is obvious isnt it. One is by flesh n immediate, the other is by faith and a long process.....

Oh God, help me outta it. Let me be willing, close all doors pls.

Monday, January 09, 2006

Hari Raya Haji Holiday! Sacrificial Lamb :(

Wow I am super tired today, tired until I did not hear the alarm clock buzz... Wat on earth am I? A piggy? Thank God I get a day rest tmr.

Chinese New year is round the corner again.....need more new clothes etc ...aiyoo I hate CNY visitation. All the bo liao relatives visitation asking "when u getting married la, got boyfriend or not la, what u working as la' All the "Pa Poa" (cantonese) questions. Maybe just like in the email joke, when we are attending a wake, we can ask them back "when is ur turn!" LOL (Crap la Gerry!)

I cannot sleep yet. Need to fetch the BMW Majesty from the Airport at 1am! When have I become a Taxi -drive? Yeah..I am a ROAD BLIND taxi driver.

Chill out Session with BMW (aka Bus-Mrt-Walk)

Yeah yeah...my brother is away on holiday over the weekend! Too bad there is no free parking in Singapore Expo as I need to attend 2 services which will amount to a "killing" carpark fees..haa..ended up I took a cab as there was an island exercise in MRT...How can I dun drive the car since it is CALLING OUT TO ME "DRIVE ME, BABY! I AM WAITING FOR U, BABY!" So my feet itch so much...and got the stupid urge to chill out at 11.30pm... I reached home at 3plus am and slept at 4am......Haaa my chance to drive his BMW....(aka Bus-Mrt-Walk, learn this from a fren)

Yeah...it has been raining non-stop since sunday morning....thot of going to East Coast Park but it was wet so venue aborted. But we went to another nice place and saw a couple of cars with the seat not in the 'correct' position. haa wonder what they are doing inside the car...LOL Is the suspension ok? :PPPP

Was quite an interesting place to chill out with cans of beer and listening over Class 95FM on a rainy nite and with the right kakis venting out our thots...Sound so romantic??? BUT it has to be with the right person le...haaa OH GOD.....Why am i the wrong person :P

I hope i can have more of such gatherings with my "long lost" frens....

Sunday, January 08, 2006

Blessed weekend with Joyce Meyer

Joyce Meyer came to our church to bless us with her preaching...This is the first time I heard message that we have to LOVE OURSELF! All the time, people is saying about loving others, serving others, sowing to others....BUT we forget that TO LOVE PEOPLE, It has to start with LOVING ME! (not in love with myself though)

I learnt alot of things....
1) To love ourself and our life
2) Self Image and how to fix our future
3) How to have healthy attitude towards ourselves

Even though I was so inspired and ecouraged during the 3 services. I realised that ultimately, it is my decision.

Xmas Day Celebration at Mr Z's House


All the "Suai Ge" and "Chio Bu"

Saturday, January 07, 2006

Am I a Self-Torturer ?

Sigh...I dun know is it the fear of God or I wanna torture myself. I turned down the red wine date with someone whom I have been trying very hard to forget.....

Never know its such a hurting feeling to LET GO.......is this SACRIFICE or KIA SI? Now I understand why there is a saying "The things are more precious when u cant get it." Yeah, I know I am a emotional freak again......."something" is clever to stir up my emotions all over again. But why I cant even end the year well and start well?
I failed in 2004, I dont wanna fail in 2005 and start koyak in 2006! God where is my strength...the "something" is so clever to send someone I like alot....but I read in the bible that as long as I cry out to you for strength, u will see me thru.....LORD SAVE ME>>>>> My heart is aching again for choosing not to see him.....God give me strength to be firm in my decision!

Lot's wife, I am not...........Pillar of salt, I dont want...............

Friday, January 06, 2006

Forbidden Love?

"Just one kiss on my lips was all it took to seal my future;
Just one look from ur eyes, was like like a certain kinda torture!
Just one touch from your hands was all it took to make me falter...Forbidden Love...Are we suppose to be together....Forbidden love

Just one smile on all your face was all it took to change my fortunue"


Mystic song by Madonna...why it seems to be a right occasion for me to hear the song.....will I ever get outta Forbidden Love?

All I know is the plans of the devil leads to destruction...the plan of God leads to victories!
So what is there to struggle with? I cant be covetous, "stealing" the things that does not belongs to me....well...I am not stealing, Am i ? I am just taking back what should be mine..........

Thursday, January 05, 2006

Right or Wrong ? Better or Worst?

Am I doing it the right thingy? Should I or Should I not? I had the revelation while showering, its bec this is still so dear to me that God want to test my heart?...whether do I love God to sacrifice the love of my life?. ..To sacrifice the things that are dear to me, which means something to me. It is not a sacrifice if I dont feel the pinch~ Aiyoooooo

Is my calling really so great that the devil wants to distract me sooo much? A ordinary christian walk, a ordinary christian life. A tougher walk, a stronger christain...The choice is obvious. Although I feel honoured to be the chosen one, i am beginning to become smaller spiritually, like a balloon leaking (aka lau gas liao) Distractions after Distractions. Will I ever get a hold of myself again???

Lets keep my finger crossed. Joyce Meyer this weekend. Hope I get my COMPLETE HEALING and CUT off all the SOUL TIES!

Wednesday, January 04, 2006

Thanks Giving Heart - The 10 Lepers

Chatted and prayed with my beloved on my way back...In the prayer, Out of her spirit, she prayed that I will be like the leper. God cured 10 of them but only 1 came back to thank God! Hence I need to rem to thank Jesus too for my healing. Then I will be totally make whole inside out because I remember to thank God for all He has done for me. Looking back in Year 2005, God indeed is faithful and carried me through so many hurdles in my life. I need to be grateful.

Well...yeah I am damn tired today. I am in intense spiritual warfare nowadays...I had a bad dream yesterday nite abt myself being demon possessed after casting out evil spirits for others. Back in real life, the idoit who complained the sight of me make him "BOILED" suddenly wanted to see me again! Crazy stupid devil.....Well, who do u think you are....I am no longer the stupid gal you used to know. Now its MY turn who DUN EVEN WANNA SEE U....I wan to lead a peaceful life. So what if u threatened not to return me the money. I trust and believe God for my reward which is more precious than what that pauper owed me!

My security is with my Lord. Just like the vision I saw, the lamb is safe and secure in Jesus's arm. I will treasure that in my life..........

Beautiful Nature


I managed to capture this beautiful sunset scene at Marina Country Club celebrating Mr Z's birthday...........


Beautiful Sunset

My Brother, My Best Friend

Russel...Terence's Doggie


Lucky first came to our house in Dec 1994 as a sweet little puppy....With a blink of eyes, he is already 12yr old now...Sad to see him aged with ailing hearing and grey hair.... Lucky, sista pray that you will have a long & blessed life ......


My Little Brother, Lucky

I NEED EMOTIONAL HEALING FAST N QUICK

I am sick of being torturedm oppressed and threatened! I WILL NOT BE DEFEATED! I have already given in to the bastard too much,,,,so many people died everyday..why is my enemy still alive everyday to torture me ?

GOD! Where is my vengence !!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!


Gerry is blasting out ATB's music as I type this stupid emotional diary !

LEAVE ME ALONE! BASTARD TAN...........

FCUK OFF DEVIL...Why u keep forcing me to speak vular language...........BIND U IN JESUS NAME ! Aiyooo what am i doing? Scolding FCUK and bind it in Jesus's name?

Came back from my NUS's friend wedding dinner, super HIGH from RED WINE again...Then that fucking jerk sms me WANTING to MEET ME!What the FCUK he wants? I dun ever wanna see that fcuking face again...Now in turn he wanna meet me! what the hack! Screw off.....I got no more strength to fight w u over stupid things like furniture etc...if u have the $ to rear a BITCH.... U cant afford to throw away old furniture? RUBBISH LA! FUCK OFF!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

OHHHHHHH .... WHY THERE IS NO PEACE. Just when I decided to let go and let GOD. He wanna meet to discuss over? What is there to discuss abt? What is there to discuss! What the fuck he wants? Leave me alone la! I cant stand the bloody sight of him anymore! FUCKING USELESS BALLESS BASTARD! DUN EVEN HAVE THE BALLS TO MEET MY FAMILY! LOSER! LOOOOOOSSSERRRR!

I Attended Toh's wedding dinner, high from red wine reminded me of 25 Dec 05. A day where my One and Only send me back.....I wont forget.... Today after drinking red wine reminded me of One and Only again! My fingers felt like dialing his HP...thank God i still can control it. I DID NOT! I cant disturb him anymore...he has a life to live and I want the best for him and myself....Let everything remains the same and I continue to be Gerry the NUN.....WOW ....After One and Only, I have been behaving myself! Why do I miss him so much now ! FUCK!

Monday, January 02, 2006

All I need is You

A new Year, A new You and a new START.

Year 2005 Review and Thanks Giving

Time flies...another year has passed with a blink of the eye. Aug 2004 marks the major changes in my life where Jerky returns to his nest. 13 May 2005 (Friday the 13) is the day when I regained my FREEDOM Legally. It is a special day for me as God has done a Miracle to me. Many people cannot even get this kind of verdict! God greatly blessed me as I dont wanna have the ugly title of Ms D. I know God has prepared me an exciting life again at the age of ...graceful age.(same as the age where Jesus started his Ministry).

I greatly felt that it is not mere coincident that I am living a new life at the same age when Jesus started his ministry. Jesus can impact life throughout his 3 years of his ministry, hence I trust I can do greater things than Jesus since the bible says we can do greater things than him!

Although Year 2004 and 2005 is not a smooth sailing year for me, I quit being an Engineer and ended up in a humble job, I lost my grandparents, I lost my most beloved partner and friend who hated me so much now and he is the one who share most of my interets and lastly I lost most of my assets and cash. But looking back, i really wanna thank God for seeing me through! Without all these tragedies, I dont think God will be able to get my attention back to serve him and love Him. I remembered the days where I am still in wilderness, whenever I walk in the rain with thunder, I was so afraid of death bec I knew I backslided. Whenever I heard loud noise, I thot Jesus came back and my heart would beat v fast....I thot I am going to HELL for Eternity! There is no sense of security at all! Although I have a family and love ones...there is no sense of future and hope for my soul.

What were my Major achievements? One of the best achievement I had was the salvation of my grandpa. God is faithful and heard my sobbing prayers. Grandpa used to be a U5 but he was saved and I witness his water baptism at the hospital before he was called back to be with God. This is the sense of achievement where no $ can buy when you led someone to Christ.

Another thing I wanna thank God for my spiritual growth, the gift of spiritual sharpness and visions and knowing a group of wonderful friends. Rebecca and Cindy stood by me faithfully, sacrificing their time and beauty sleep to accompany me at SK. Mr Z and Baby for standing in the gap to pray and persuading me to church where I nearly go bersek again. Really glad to have a group of good and faithful friends.

Hung Up from Red Wne

Red wine happens to be my best friend and company for Xmas 2005 and New Year 2006...Somehow I can drink more nowadays. I dun get 'happy' from many glasses or red wine! I used to be very 'happy' after 5 glasses. But I am still sober after drinking 2 bottles of red wine:(

Dream Guy...Bollywood or Hollywood?


Hey..for those who thought I like BLACK man...Pls have a look at the picture and prove yourself wrong la...Aiyooo.... :S




Bollywood or Tom Cruise Look Alike?

Happy New Year 2006!

The OLD is GONE, The NEW has COME!



The Chronicles of NARHIA~

Finally Director Gerry's latest movie is coming soon...the Hokkien Version of the NARHIA Show...featuring the Lian, the BITCH and most importantly, her STUPID WARDROBE.

This is a show not to be missed by those Lians and Bengs.


The Long Awaited Movie...
Usual Gerry Productions

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