Where is my Hiding Place?

I knew it all along....coming back is not a glorious thingy afterall..... I have to face my neighbour's gossips, I have to listen to nags and worst of all, I LOST MY FREEDOM and MY PRIVATE TIME! I dont even have a proper place to hide and cry.....my mom is snoring like a pig in my bedroom.... ??? I wanna get outta of this place SOON N FAST!

God will u ever accept me again? I heard of prophesying to the dry bones.....But I never wanted anyone to hate me to the bones! Why do i have to suffer so much alone and now being hated so much........WHAT HAVE I DONE WRONG??? He suddenly STOP LOVING ME AND DUMPED ME. So he is enjoying his bloody life better than me now. New job, new gal, NEW SHIT ! Why is he complaining abt me? WHY THE HELL HE SAID THAT!!!!

God, I m already hanging on well to the very last day of 2005, hoping to end it all well and start it well........seems like my year will end like 2004 again. The difference? I dont have my One and Only by my side this time round..I will spend my new year alone with Lucky and my mom's snore.

God is that how u repay someone who loves u ? Is that what you will punish your child with? Well....guess its your punishment to me for not choosing Your way 10 yrs ago.... But haven I had enuff punishment?!