Grant me the Peace now! My Hiding Place

Well....I have been PMS these few days.....After praying and worshipping I was ok. But I kee siao again today. My emotions is soooo shakable......simple things can trigger the button for the vocanoe to erupt! Oh Lord, where is the Peace of God? I seems to forget all abt it!

Well, Terrier bugged me with many calls and sms....well, I am not ready to see him nor deal with him yet. God You said when I have faith in You, U will repay me back 100 folds. I just had the selfish thots why he also benefited from the blessings you showered me with. Forgive my selfish thoughts, but i seriously think that he does not deserve any, well at least at this moment. I hope one day when he received his salvation, he will be guilty of what he has done. As for now, he still think that he is the BEST! PHUI ~

Lord, when I trust in you, will you pls guide me? I thot I have forgiven him. But deep down, there is still alot of thingy to be dealt with. This is the first time, the sight of him makes me feel like "PHUI, PHUI, PHUI!". I realised that the love has turned into hatred. I thought I have forgiven him and received deliverance, but these few days it seems that I hated him more than before? Aiyoo what has gotten into me? Is it bec i never guard my emotions? GET LOST DEVIL !

God, I dont wanna lost my focus and relationship with You because of the unworthy piece of shit. I realised it is indeed a priviledge to serve God. Jesus, you are there in the darkest pit of my life. You showed me the verse telling me how much You love me even before I came back to church....Lord I still remember the sight where I cried out loud alone in the bedroom looking towards heaven, asking myself "Is there a God, If you are real, can you help me pls?" That was when you showed me the powerful verse that changed my life! Daddy God, I long to be with you....pls shower me with your love and peace. Help me to forgive him and forget. Forgive me for my sins and evil thots... I dont wanna be a emotional cry baby....God You Are My Hiding Place!

Pls let me have the willingness and wisdom to choose the GODLY and RIGHTEOUS way....
RAIN DOWN UR BLESSING AND DO NOT SHUT THE HEAVEN PLS....