Where is my Hiding Place?

I knew it all along....coming back is not a glorious thingy afterall..... I have to face my neighbour's gossips, I have to listen to nags and worst of all, I LOST MY FREEDOM and MY PRIVATE TIME! I dont even have a proper place to hide and cry.....my mom is snoring like a pig in my bedroom.... ??? I wanna get outta of this place SOON N FAST!

God will u ever accept me again? I heard of prophesying to the dry bones.....But I never wanted anyone to hate me to the bones! Why do i have to suffer so much alone and now being hated so much........WHAT HAVE I DONE WRONG??? He suddenly STOP LOVING ME AND DUMPED ME. So he is enjoying his bloody life better than me now. New job, new gal, NEW SHIT ! Why is he complaining abt me? WHY THE HELL HE SAID THAT!!!!

God, I m already hanging on well to the very last day of 2005, hoping to end it all well and start it well........seems like my year will end like 2004 again. The difference? I dont have my One and Only by my side this time round..I will spend my new year alone with Lucky and my mom's snore.

God is that how u repay someone who loves u ? Is that what you will punish your child with? Well....guess its your punishment to me for not choosing Your way 10 yrs ago.... But haven I had enuff punishment?!

Bad Habits

i just realised my bad habit...I indulge in food when I am in a bad mood...that explains why I have such a figure!

Receive something dreadful from a bastard tonite........why he behaves totally like a BASTARD! CANT HE JUST LEAVE ME ALONE>>>

Created sooo much problem and still push the blame to others........GOD WHERE IS JUSTICE?

Grant me the Peace now! My Hiding Place

Well....I have been PMS these few days.....After praying and worshipping I was ok. But I kee siao again today. My emotions is soooo shakable......simple things can trigger the button for the vocanoe to erupt! Oh Lord, where is the Peace of God? I seems to forget all abt it!

Well, Terrier bugged me with many calls and sms....well, I am not ready to see him nor deal with him yet. God You said when I have faith in You, U will repay me back 100 folds. I just had the selfish thots why he also benefited from the blessings you showered me with. Forgive my selfish thoughts, but i seriously think that he does not deserve any, well at least at this moment. I hope one day when he received his salvation, he will be guilty of what he has done. As for now, he still think that he is the BEST! PHUI ~

Lord, when I trust in you, will you pls guide me? I thot I have forgiven him. But deep down, there is still alot of thingy to be dealt with. This is the first time, the sight of him makes me feel like "PHUI, PHUI, PHUI!". I realised that the love has turned into hatred. I thought I have forgiven him and received deliverance, but these few days it seems that I hated him more than before? Aiyoo what has gotten into me? Is it bec i never guard my emotions? GET LOST DEVIL !

God, I dont wanna lost my focus and relationship with You because of the unworthy piece of shit. I realised it is indeed a priviledge to serve God. Jesus, you are there in the darkest pit of my life. You showed me the verse telling me how much You love me even before I came back to church....Lord I still remember the sight where I cried out loud alone in the bedroom looking towards heaven, asking myself "Is there a God, If you are real, can you help me pls?" That was when you showed me the powerful verse that changed my life! Daddy God, I long to be with you....pls shower me with your love and peace. Help me to forgive him and forget. Forgive me for my sins and evil thots... I dont wanna be a emotional cry baby....God You Are My Hiding Place!

Pls let me have the willingness and wisdom to choose the GODLY and RIGHTEOUS way....
RAIN DOWN UR BLESSING AND DO NOT SHUT THE HEAVEN PLS....

Where is the Peace of God??

I knew the day is going to come where the monster will manifest. Until now still wan everything as fair and square? What about me? Who is going to be fair n square to me? I have long ago given up on a fair treatment. There is nothing as being fair...How can a husband be fair to all his wives even though he tried his best to be fair... There are bound to be favourites and best! And u r still such a silly fellow asking for fair and square?? Come on! Silly man!

I know God is the ultimate judge, but I am not a saint nor goddess but only a normal human..... Cant they just be more merciful? Until now still dun realise what kinda wrong he has done.... I wish I could curse and swear...I wish they is another way for me to release all the anger, hatred and even 'evil' thoughts I had towards him. Thank God I slapped him hard in the dream. How come I never slap him in person before? Why am i so stupid ....aiyooo! I should have slapped him hard for all he has done. :P haaaa SHIOK AR

Why my strength in being faithful turn to such a worthless ending...I really invested in the wrong thingy.....

Come on baby! I am waiting for the day where u will come and bug me for all the thingy. Well...too bad I have a stronger backing than u....

Many things HAPPENED all within a month~~

It has been such a long time since I update my blog....alot of things happened within a month....Its really scary to go against God and His children. Just like what Pastor Phil said, a man died of heart attack few days after 'persecuting' him. Wow...listen guys....if you dont believe in our God, just keep quiet! Stop going against us...its scary to know your consequences going against God's children as you are indirectly going against God!

God is really good! He always encourages me at the right time. Pastor prophecy during our first prayer meet at our new worship place. That encorages me alot as "NO WEAPON FORMED AGAINST US SHALL PROSPER!". I remember Holy Spirit reminded me in a vision that Jesus is our Prince of Peace and our Lord of Lords.......Hallelujah!

Gossip and slandering are really so scary.....it is like a posionous snake which will poison the person's mind and stir up all his emotions and destroy him ultimately. I really pity the young girly. Despite their young age, they could create so much havoc just out of their jealousy and insecurity........Well, I never even had the slightest intention to harm them. Why do they view me as a threat? Sigh...its really a pity as they are really so silly to view me as a threat... Just because of their foolishness causes so many changes and ruin their own future. Sigh.... What a pity.....