Wildcat Farewell Gathering on 1 Oct 05 (Sat)

Saturday was our gathering for Wildcat as she is leaving for Dubai on Monday. Well, there goes one of my good friend and Clubbing Kaki as she will be away for one year! We also celebrated Doris's birthday on the same day. Her birthday falls on the exact date, month and year with that Idiot! Meaning if I celebrate her birthday, every year I will remember his...... So sick of it! Cant stand it! He took away my Mont Blanc Pen! Should have kept it under lock ! Why am I so stupid to gave him that as a present last time?! HUMK !

I had a terrible feeling while I was at the gathering. Somehow or rather, this is the first time where I find that I dont have much to talk to them! :( We used to be so happy together...but now I felt like the things we chat and said is 'lifeless'. They chat about Korean Stupid Love Serials, the sad and romantic stories (not practical at all in real life) etc etc...yackety Yack! I was bored to death man! But for the sake for my good friend, I tried to stay there as long as possible.....

There is really a difference between godly friends and worldly friends. I am glad I felt this way as I know that my life is indeed different now, I am with my church family. And I feel very happy and enjoy our fellowship together. Even though sometimes we crack silly jokes, but it is still so funny with 'BIBLELICAL" implications...(Haaaa I still remembered one of our brothers who cant pronounce "biblical" correctly :P)

Thank God I managed to break the 'lock' inside me after abt 3 weeks of emotional and spititual dryness. Thank You Lord for the word at Isaiah 46:10 and Isaiah 51:12-16 "I am God's People!" God loves me so much......

Thank you Father for the vision of the black tunnel even before my trials began. Although now I am still at the pit of the test, Lord I trust and believe that you will deliver me outta this situation as long as I hang onto U and be obedient. In the midst of this situation, I know that u r preparing me for greater works and to mold my character. It really does not matter how many times we failsed but its a matter of us gaving up trying.

"Lord, Help me to submit everything to u and let you be my security instead of finding it in human. You can be my source and my salvation! Now I understand the meaning of this song!"