SHOU FANG KAI Ba! (Let it Go la....Gerry.....)

Be it I am stupid, Be it I am idiot, Be it I am downcast......I am choosing to be a loser....Yes! A Damn Lousy LOSER! What can I achieve anyway !?!

Well.....Let it go...let it gooo....LET IT GOOOOOOO>>>>>>>>>>!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
ARGGGGGGGGHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH

I am utterly depressed now. Why why whyyyyy! Lucky's room here is full of memories, memories of something I wished I can forget, erase and restart. Why must I found those cards that reminds me of the good old times? He used to be such a pure & sweet 'asshole', but now he is really 180 degree changed. Actually, I did not even realised that he has changed so much during the past few years. The passion is totally OUT n OFF! Well at least thank God it ended before we got more commitment. I think I might end up being an grumpy housewife full of regrets throughout my life living with a messy, lazy n miser character which I cannot stand. Well I dont want to be like my grandparents and parents. Regret throughout their life for marrying the wrong person and lived in pain that can never be reverse nor erased.

This is an real life example: Man's vow or commitment is worth nothing! One moment they made a vow, telling you how much he loves you, (Bullshit) the next moment he is eveready to break it and act blur "Did I say that?'. Is it suppose to be like this? Well, I dont agree with that! Where is the Character and Commitment? Nowadays man dont take on any more responsibilities. They just wan visual pleasures and to satisfy their 2 heads!

One of the most impt decision to make is for us to marry the right partner. If u get a wrong one, ur life will become a living hell, and then another hell after we died. Isnt it scary?? If we get a right one, we can rest assured to enjoy each other's company......encouraging one another to serve the Lord together and edifying one another.

Cursing and blessing, U choose it !