Oh NO! Where is my Fear Factor for da Lord!

On Tue and Wed, I was down with flu. Yes...again....:S I was practically sleeping the whole day on Wed after being 'drugged' from all the medicine intake. I had slacken in my prayer and bible reading during those days. Yesterday nite I was wasting my time watching "The war of the World" by Tom Cruise after praying with Der and Ko Ko. Instead of reading the bible which is my spiritual food, my computer became my idol. Then when I woke up this morning, I took God for granted and repented for not reading the bible and spending QT with Him. I behave like a total Idiot! Am I asking for cheap grace? Taking God for granted and sinned wilfully?????

Then today during CG as we begin speaking in the heavenly language, I heard the HS saying "Where is your Fear for the Lord?!!!" OH NO!!!! I started crying with regrets for grieving the HS!!! Why! I prophecy last week warning myself and others never to greive the HS. But here I am, repeating the same mistakes! :(

God, Pls forgive my ignorance and disobedience. I will place the fear of the Lord as the top priority, seeking God daily and keep myself away for any unrepented sins. I dont want to procastinate my repentance as I may not know whether will I ever get up the next day. Let this be a lesson learnt as it will be disastrous if I were to died in my sleep. Then all my effort will be wasted. Just for one folly moment of laziness, risked throwing my entire body, soul and spirit into the everlasting furnance....Not worth at all man!!!!