God won't Challenge u, If u r not READY~~

Yesterday was a special day because it was one of my good brotha's birthday! He went on a shopping spree at Topshop just like a jailbird that was lock in cage for a looonnnggg time since he had been lock at home studying so hard for his exams. Then went for a nice Japanese meal....so paiseh...I hope will be able to bless him back soon. :( Hummm today I miraculously bumped into 2 pals whom I have not seen for some time. One of my ex-colleague at Lane Crawford (haa we used to club at Buzz long time again. The pub had already closed down.) and Turkey on the MRT. Hummm I never bother to say hi to them.....Singapore is really too small. Better behave well, else dont know wat will happen if I ever bump into someone.......Now I dare not go to RP for gym or my lawyer's office anymore. In fact, I dont even want to step into any place near CBD bec I dont know how will I react if I ever saw OnO again. Will he bother to say Hi or behave as if we are total stranger? In either case, I know I will not feel good about it. In fact, I still want to keep him as a normal friend.....but I think he does not even want to maintain it that way.... Gerry wondering....

I really wonder how will I react if I ever see terror on the street with a new gf in his arms. Can I pretend not to see him or can I pretend to be happy for him since he has found someone who he feels is better than me? I know I dont wanna be bother about him anymore, but will I feel awkward at all? I still remember my brotha showed me a song by Toni Braxton "He wasn't man enough for me." whhaaa haaaa LOL...........Anyway....who cares about him anymore, anyway......

After finished makan the wonderful sashimi, we went to a friend's shop at Tanglin Mall. Had a great time of fellowshipping and praying. Actually hor dont know why I felt so pressurised that my prayer buddy is my leader...:P Aiyoooo kan jeong man! But thank God all went well except me a little blockages halfway :P . hee hee the presence of God was all around us and I believe God knows and understand what we prayed as it came out from our hearts.

After praying, we met up another doggie fan and 4 of us had a wonderful fellowship sharing our experiences and discussion about godly things at Scotts. We were all edified and encouraged by each other's testimonies....haaa haa Brix is just nearby...... :O No No No No........ ok! Young men really see visions and old man dream dreams??? Haaa Seems like I belong to the middle group bec I see vision and dream dreams.....Really had revelation upon revelation about what is the bottom line of our faith and walk with Christ?? It only bolted down with these 2 basic principles "TRUST N OBEY" .... Seek Ye first the kingdom of God and ALL things shall be ADDED upon u! I really pray and wait upon the Lord for the great encounter doggie fan had after he chose to be obedient to God. God is really good to give both of us such 'scary' dreams that awaken our spirit man, removed the deception plot of the devil which made us decided to re-dedicate our life back to Jesus. Jesus is SERIOUS in his WORD about forsaking his 99 sheeps and go searching for his one and only lost sheep. He is really a great shepard!

I felt really blessed that blockages were broken......Do I mean it when I say "Jesus, I Love You! Jesus I give u all" in those worship songs that I sang?! I cant even lead a sanctify lifestyle and obey what He challenged me to forsake?? Although to others its a very simple thing to do, but to me, this is something like a sacrifice because it matters alot to me. At the end of the day, love surpasses all things and I will give it up. Indeed, I realised I can no longer get any satisfaction from clubbing. I found a better treasure......... and the treasure is God, the Father, The Son and the HOLY SPIRIT! AMEN !!!