Beware of 'Butterfly Effect" if Turn back the clock

Gee....Gee......Wildcat is always such a smart cat....I told her I want to Turn Back the Clock..The first thing she mentioned was Beware of the "Butterfly Effect" just like in the movie! LOL..............True...U cant change watever it was destined or happened.....The more u wanna change it to the better, the worst the situation becomes.

Actually even if I really want to turn back the clock...to which part of my life? Back to Secondary school or Poly days? Back to University days? Which part of it I missed most or rather which part of my life that I would like to erased? Hummm I dont know..Poly days was where I met Terror and enjoyed all the water sports and all the clubbings. Uni days was "sufferings' from all those assignments and dissertation but it was where I met a few good friends as we 'suffered' together. Secondary was where I first come to know about Jesus as I was in a methodist school. So where do I wanna change? Maybe its my attitude that requires change??? There were moments whereby I enjoyed myself soooo much that I would never wana forget even though some was rather short. But I would still treasured it in heart.... Who cares and who bothers as long as you are happy? Bible never says to be happy is WRONG!

DONT COME AND CHANGE ME WITHOUT EVEN KNOWING WHAT I WENT THROUGH!!!!!!!!!!!! WHATEVER I DO, I WILL NEVER BE 'GOOD' ACCORDING TO YOUR STANDARD! I AM JUST A 'CANNOT MAKE IT' GAL IN A CANNOT MAKE IT GROUP ANYWAY.

In conclusion, probably I would still live my life as it it except that I would never start dating Terror when I was 19. Probably I would enjoy life to the fullest with all my wonderful 'WORLDLY' friends that I have made.........................Anyway, You have no rights u to tell me to cut off my friends whom I have know for more than 10 yrs! And u barely even know me.... Did u help me when I was in total despair? NO! Did u talk to me when I was totally confuse in a worldly mess? NO!

Oh GOD! Why is the devil rising inside me! I really need to vent it out!