Life is a challenge. How will I end the race?

Good time really flies very fast...my brother and his family had stayed with me for 2 weeks already and I am v sad that they left today. My niece is sssssoooooooo adorable and lovable! Kids are really cute even when they are crying and notti ... :) Love her soooo much still..........I still can recall her cute little 2 yr old voice asking me:"U wan cane?" whhhhhaaaa so cute and notti! Am kinda sad to see them leave today as I will be left alone again after 2 weeks of enjoyment with them. sob....sob...

Past few days were definitely not a very good one for me though. Too many unhappy things happened. Pressures and more pressures from family members. I know they are just concern for me but...........I really dont wan to bother too much over why he made this choice and demand anything from him. They dont know that I had suffered since 1 yr 8mths ago.... Guess life is such that we must learn to let go and move on. Put down the past, bitterness and just move on. Really...no point anymore. I have already submitted all to my Messiah, I am no longer in control of anything now. I just leave it to God. My God will supply all my needs according to his riches and glory in heaven...

15 April 05 (Friday), a day I would never forget. Its a day I heard the most terrible comments made. What good does it made to the person who made the terrible remarks? I am terribly saddened by the incident as I never expected such terrible words to ever come out from his mouth. How come it has turned out to be so ugly? Lord, arent we suppose to be kind to one another? Control his tongue please........ I really dont mean it toooo ....................Went to cg at nite feeling very vulnerable and fragile. I can hardly smile even though i wanna try to be my usual happy Gerry. But .................................sigh..................HURTS !

I was controlling my tears when praise started. When worship session began, tears just rolled down profusely.....really need to soak in God's presence. Every prophecies stirred up my spirit and was deeply encouraged.

Today Pastor shared about a verse from Psalm 73 about praising and worshipping God in moment when it was the hardest for us to praise God. I know God is looking at our attitude. I really hope I can shine for Jesus and bring salvation to my family. When one is save, the whole household will be save! But then, the anoiting will comes with a price tag.....so what is my 'budget' for the anoiting? I dont know, i will just keep on going, keep on moving, keeping on praying and keep on guarding........I dont wan to end the race defeated and ashamed. I wan to fight the good fight of FAITH!