Jesus please help me Perservere

Hebrews 12 God Disciplines His Sons

1Therefore, since we are surrounded by such a great cloud of witnesses, let us throw off everything that hinders and the sin that so easily entangles, and let us run with perseverance the race marked out for us.

2Let us fix our eyes on Jesus, the author and perfecter of our faith, who for the joy set before him endured the cross, scorning its shame, and sat down at the right hand of the throne of God.

3Consider him who endured such opposition from sinful men, so that you will not grow weary and lose heart.

4In your struggle against sin, you have not yet resisted to the point of shedding your blood.

5And you have forgotten that word of encouragement that addresses you as sons: "My son, do not make light of the Lord's discipline, and do not lose heart when he rebukes you,

6because the Lord disciplines those he loves, and he punishes everyone he accepts as a son."

7Endure hardship as discipline; God is treating you as sons. For what son is not disciplined by his father?

Heb 12: 14 Warning Against Refusing God

14Make every effort to live in peace with all men and to be holy; without holiness no one will see the Lord.

15See to it that no one misses the grace of God and that no bitter root grows up to cause trouble and defile many. "

Today is another weary day. I finally know what God wants me to change. It took a rather painful process for me to realise my root problem. I need to know how to handle relationship and treasure them rather than "Take frens for granted"........Came home CRYING OUT LOUD to God...Cry & cry & cry & cry............................Sob sob......

There has been misunderstanding with my frens last weekend. Actually i was so angry with them and i told myself never to contact them again. But I was convicted when aI was reading the Purpose life Book, "to live in peace with all men". Hence I decided to date them out for a talk to clarify everything. This is an act of obedient or foolishness? I dont know. But I did prayed about it and think I should settle it as I still treasure the friendship and I should settle fast so that no bitterness will outgrow our friendship.

However as i was about to meet them i sense quite heavy laden. (Guess it was the holy spirit prompting.) ..........The rest shall not be mentioned as I forgive them.......
(When God forgive us, he also strike out our records of sins from our "eternal" record book)

This was confirmed again when I came back and seek God, warning me to live in PEACE with ALL MEN (not limited to only christians!) Hence, guess it was a right thing to do as i want to be accountable to God. I do not want to lose the friendship and most importantly, I don want them to miss the grace of God and hope that no bitter root will grow up within us. I anticipated nasty thing meeting them (but I never expect it to be soooo bad). I still proceed to meet them because i wan to prove to God that I am obedient to him. I will humble myself and lower my pride to date them and apologise to them face to face. It is up to them to decide or not to accept me as a fren. God this is the best that I can do.....to be accountable to them......

Talk about the hardship that I am facing now. Sigh......At first, i thought my life is Ji Tao Pengzzz, so how can i serve God? Thus I have been postponing water baptism and opening myself up to serve in any ministry. However, an angelic gave me a "knock out" today, this "suffering" is a process of testing and not "ji tao pengzzz" life! Although it was just a very nice and peaceful talk, but it really straighten out some of my negative thoughts. Thank u dearie !!

I Pray hard that i will cling onto this verse:

Heb12:11 "No discipline seems pleasant at the time, but painful. Later on, it will produces harvest of righteouness and peace for those who have been trained by it."

Abba Father:
Please help me to focus on the harvest of righteouness and peace. May i cast all my worries, hurt, brokeness, weariness,loneliness upon u. Lord, i present all those "bad things" unto u. Please help me to throw it away and lighten the burden in my heart. Help me to change and mould me so that my real christ like character can be shining forth! Lord i believe i have a good testimony in whatever ministry that u ultimately called me into. Lord, take away all my rebellious nature, make me a heart like a dove, pure and soft with peace and love. Help me to redirect all attention to u and lean not unto any man from today onwards. Lord....help me...I am desperate.

U r magnificent, eternally, wonderful and Glorious....Jesus.......no one will ever compare to u.......

Thank u Jesus, I Love U Jesus! (Please mould me to love u more)
Amen!